I know almost all my posts these days are just me feeling sorry for myself. To be honest, I can't really deny the fact that I am. And it really doesn't feel like things are going to get any better any time soon. There aren't many of my friends who know, and certainly my family has no idea how really bad I'm doing. I can go about my day when busy and surrounded by people as normal but inside I am in this state of despair. I feel alone and empty and lost. I can't concentrate on anything and my work is suffering immensely. And I don't know when that's gonna go away.
Despite everything I have to say thank you to my amazing friends. I really do love them more than they'll ever know and they're keeping me from sinking to that most awful level again.
Signing off for today with a video which did in fact manage to put a smile on my face. Thanks Ok Go...
I've been hoping for months, hoping for years,
hoping I might forget.
Aw but it don't get much dumber,
it don't get much dumber
Than trying to forget a girl when you love her.
And I, yeah I still need you,
but what good's that gonna do?
Needing is one thing, and getting-