# The definition of cool #

Reblogging this from Sharlz' tumblr - this duo, Karmin, do amazing covers and this one's by faaaar my fave. She is SO amazing - spectacular voice + mad rapping skills = a smiling me (even at 1 in the morning with a killer law of property exam in 7 hours :P).

Karmin covering "Look at Me Now" by Chris Brown ft. Lil Wayne & Busta Rhymes

~New Bangs~

So I think that's what Americans call them - bangs? :P I cut this new full fringe a little while ago myself, over my res basin - just for fun. (And because I am procrastinating from studying like a boss :P Mainly that actually. Although I have been wanting to go full fringe for a while. All that's left to do is the hair dye! ;P)

Short term aspirations!! *yay*

Two random things on my mind right now - ok to be entirely honest there are about a million random things on my mind right now but these are the two I'd like to blog about right now at exactly 00:34 when I should be getting some sleep so I can actually have a productive day of study tomorrow... Aaaaanyway!

These are 2 things I am looking forward to greatly in the next 2 months... 

Firstly!! Next term is a major term for birthdays, and particularly for 21st's so I am so, so, SO super excited about all the dressing up that that's going to entail. The first one I have when I get back is a trailer trash themed 21st - exceedingly excited for the curlers in the hair, cigarette behind the ear, belly button exposing cropped top and possibly some home-made cut off denim shorts (with leggings of course 'cause there is only so far I will go :P hehe). Then next will be MY 21st bash in g-town, which I haven't chosen a theme for yet - eep! Need to do that soon. And then I have a "freaker's ball" 21st (basically the old school sideshow, carni kinda vibe). Have NO idea what I'm going to do for that! (Suggestions are welcome! :P) But its very exciting. Then I have an under the sea themed 21st 2 weeks later - and toying between the easy option of some sort of sailor or Sharlz's suggestion of jellyfish ('cause I have this bright blue poofy bubble skirt that would work for that) or if I could pull it off - the AWESOMENESS of Spongebob Squarepants! XD  

As could clearly be gathered from my post about my last dress up 21st (where I was Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz - so worth seeing, I'm rather proud of it) I am exceedingly fond of dress ups!! 

The other thing that I am super stoked about this holiday is baking adventures with Sharlz (which I mentioned previously but like, seriously! :P)

We heart it has opened me up to a whole new world of insanely awesome cupcake ideas that are downright inspirational I tell you! I think I need to start a portfolio or something 'cause when I'm a mom one day and have lots of children's parties to bake for these would give me ideas for daaaaays... :P (Yes, I do think "When I'm a mom one day..." types of thoughts quite a lot. hehe) Now I won't be making anything near this awesome this holiday, of course - but these are some of my favourite crazy cool cupcake pics of late. . . ^_^

~That's right, it's happening!!~

So I finally made the decision. I have been wanting to get a tattoo for years but I finally decided I'm going to do it on my 21st birthday!!! ^_^ There are lots of reasons why I am doing it then and why I'm getting what I'm getting but I want to talk about it all when I actually get it... I'm also not going to post the picture of the design I want because I want it to only appear on my blog on ME :P hehe.

For now, this is a lovely tattoo I saw on We heart It that is stunning and very unique... (Not the one I'm getting - don't be misled, but lovely none the less.)

^_^ *The perfect cure* ^_^

So the start to a perfect end of a hellish week was some super awesome girls and 2 for 1 cocktails!! Claire and I literally walked out of our southern African politics exam (which actually ended up going a lot better than I expected after all) and went straight into Grotto Mojito to have some of the super yummy babies you can see below... We did almost the full rounds of the time and it was actually a rather interesting evening by the end of it...

Gabi (pictured at the top) and Claire (at the bottom) are most defs two of my favouritest party buddies!! (And I was very proud to be the one to buy Claire her first ever beer! ^_^ It was originally just cause they were R7 but then I found out she had never had an entire beer on her own and I couldn't let her turn 21 - just 2 days later - with that being the case, could I? :P)

Down but not quite out...

So haven't been doing too great lately, and it pains me to make my first official non-happy post on this blog but I guess it had to happen sometime...

So why life is pretty sucky at the moment... Firstly its exams and as if I didn't hate exams enough already, I have been allocated THE worst timetable EVER. I have written 2 in the last 2 days and write on Thursday and Friday. Yes, that means FOUR 3rd year papers, i.e. the majors in the final and hardest year of my degree, in the space of 5 days. Last night my efforts to have another nearly sleepless night studying back fired and I fell asleep and lost around 5 hours of vital study time. It might not seem like a lot, but when I literally had just 12 hours between my first paper and the next, it really is. Basically had a mini-meltdown this morning because I honestly did not feel like I could get the minimum I needed to for this paper. You know its bad when you have to make sure you've wiped off all the of the mascara-laden tear stains down your face before you leave to go write your exam. Now that it is over, I'm still not sure but there's not much I can do about that now. And I basically have absolutely everything riding on this year. But enough about that - I have shed enough tears and wailed at enough of my friends for one day :P (Shout out to Jamie John Bezuidenhout for being the awesome guy he is ;P)

Secondly, and something which puts my exam stress completely in perspective, there was an awful car accident in which two people were killed just outside Grahamstown, a girl who lives in the res just near mine, and I guy who I've seen around g-town a thousand times... Both were good friends with many people I know. Even though I didn't know either of them personally, it is absolutely awful and it has been yet another source of tears over the last 2 days reading the statuses and posts from their friends. I can't help but imagine the unbelievable pain they must be in, not to mention their families! Its just so inconceivable that 2 young, vibrant people with their entire lives ahead of them should be taken from this world. I am sending as much love as I can to all that knew them. :'(

Yet another addition to my current state of emotional turmoil was a message received from my ex-boyfriend a few days ago. Now I know that months down the line, something as insignificant as an sms should not affect me like this but it just has sort of brought up all of the dregs of emotion still dwelling inside of me - and at THE most inconvenient time at that. As much as I have not lost my belief in love, it is times like these that make me think that life would have been a lot simpler if I hadn't found out what it really meant. Because once you've had it and then you lose it, a part of you gets lost with it. And I'm trying to decide which is worse - the time when you're still in love but you know its over for good, or the time when you're not in love anymore and all you have left (amongst the hurt and the resentment) is the memory of what it used to feel like. 

This is by far the my deepest and most revealing post yet. And I do feel a little vulnerable sending such personal musings out into the big wide world. But his is one of the reasons I wanted to do this whole blog thing. To share and express. And not just the good but the bad too. 

On a more positive note, I do have A LOT to look forward to once these exams are over. More deets to follow - but let me just say for now that MAJOR ish is going to be going down. . .

For now I'm signing out to return to my studies. Currently engrossed in the Law of Persons (at least much more interesting than the content of the paper I wrote today even if there is in fact even more to actually learn). Here's to the nasciturus fiction, domicile, prodigals, curators, lots of latin terminology and cases involving people with some of the weirdest names I have ever heard - case in point with Mr. Beaglehole (I mean, really?). 

Signed: Down but not quite out. . .