Every time I seem to come to some pertinent moment in my life, most often times of hardship in the area of love like now (as I am newly single once again as of two days ago), I always seem to stumble accidentally upon a song which seems to sum up exactly what I'm going through or what I'm feeling. Last night I was watching a movie, after trying desperately to get my mind to focus on the 8000 word essay I have due in a few days, and I heard some snippets of a song whose lyrics seemed to resonate. When I googled it and found I actually already had it on my I-tunes (of course, cause I have such great music taste :P) and I listened to it over and over again. At least in my time of pain I can find a tiny bit of solace in the beautiful composition of feelings someone else felt just like I am right now.
Paper Bag - Fiona Apple
And I went crazy again today, looking a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified,
Come on put a little love here in my void,' He said
'Its all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything'
I was always one who thought that wedding cakes looked infinitely more sophisticated and elegant without the cheesy traditional little plastic bride and groom on top. But in the heaps of time that I spend on my favourite wedding blog (ruffledblog.com) I have come across some adorable, quirky and still stylish ones...
So its been so long since my last post that the format of this posting box has completely changed... SO much has changed since my last post. My boyfriend and I are back together and I am so happy about that. We just couldn't stay broken up - we couldn't stay apart. And it has not been easy by any means - its been an uphill battle a lot of the time. But when it comes to the person that you love it is worth fighting for (as cliched as it may sound).
To start with uni - its been exceedingly challenging. Honours is on a completely different level to everything that came before. I busy writing exams (probably the main reason why I'm posting at this precise moment - in desperate need of ways to procrastinate). I don't think I've been doing as well as I had wanted because of the emotional struggles I've been having but hopefully I will pull through. This year really has been about work, work, work for me though - time with friends has really taken a knock, I've been out two times this entire term, and I have not been able to go to a single gig this whole year :( Even though I want to work my butt off next semester I also really want to remember that this is my last year and after this me and my closest friends are all going to be going off in different directions into the the real world. It makes me so sad thinking about it :/ I really want to have as much fun with them as possible while we still can.
The last few weeks have been rough for me - emotionally I am not in the greatest place. The ramifications of the break up and what went down has brought me back into a rather scary state of mind but I am trying really hard to deal. And usually these things come in phases and hopefully it'll pass eventually. You might be hearing more about that at some point...
For now, here is my absolute FAVOURITE song at the moment - the stunning Dia Frampton (who totally should have won season 1 of the The Voice!) has released and album and this is my favourite song off of it (followed by Isabella). Its beautiful vocally and the lyrics really resonate with me.
